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FANFIC: House of Light – Today Will Be Better, I Swear (Life Unexpected)

A/N: Unfortunately, this is not a new chapter. This is chapter 8, which I first posted in the summer of 2012 at ff.net, but never added to this blog. I’m sorry to say I can’t give any decisive updates regarding this story at the moment. This is my most popular fanfic of all time. I still get notifications that new readers have favorited it or subscribed to it even now, years later, so I’m sorry I don’t have better news for you right now. Please know I’m very grateful to everyone who has read it.

Old pale memories of someone you knew
Keep crawling through the back of your mind
And the closet’s been shaken with bones

Little reminders that you’re out on your own
– Stars

1. Prologue
2. Morning Madness
3. Give Me Something (To Hold Onto)
4. Hunches in Bunches
5. [ Ocean Waves ]
6. This Is A Recording
7. Speak
8. Today Will Be Better, I Swear

Lux kept the slip of paper tucked in her pocket like a good luck charm for days afterwards, only pulling it out every so often to run her fingertips along the texture of the torn edges. Paper was the opposite of ceramic, or glass: unexpected in the way that it softened at each haphazard tear, as opposed to the straight, precise edges of pre-cut sheets that would slice through your skin if you weren’t careful. Ceramic, on the other hand, became more dangerous with each sharp, jagged break.

She decided early on that she would start with the first name that Mr. Daniels had written down, the one at the top left corner. To be honest, she never allowed herself to read past that space, saving her mother’s name for later the way you might hoard the last cookie in the jar, unable to face the inevitable emptiness that followed. There were times when she wanted to throw the paper away entirely. In fact, her fingers hovered above the wastebasket more than a few times, but in the end she couldn’t go through with it.

A part of her wanted them to see her…

FANFIC: House of Light – Speak

The tears dissolve the last block of ice in my throat.
I feel the frozen stillness melt down through the inside of me, dripping shards of ice that vanish in a puddle of sunlight on the stained floor.
Words float up.

–  Laurie Halse Anderson

House of Light

1. Prologue
2. Morning Madness
3. Give Me Something (To Hold Onto)
4. Hunches in Bunches
5. [ Ocean Waves ]
6. This Is A Recording
7. Speak

“There are a lot of things you’re going to want to push the rewind button on,” they tell me, and my natural instinct is to respond with sarcasm: The rewind button? You think?, but instead I bite my bottom lip and listen.  “There are a lot of things you’re going to have completely relearn, a lot of basic things you used to take for granted.”  Listening is one of those things.  I never realized how much of the world I missed out on when I could see, those little sounds that used to just be background noise to me but now they are everything.  “It won’t be easy,” they say, as if they weren’t stating the obvious, “in fact, I can guarantee you it’ll be frustrating.  Most likely, you’ll be angry for a long while.  But we can get you through it.  We can help you rewind.  And we can help you get back to a place where you can press play again.” 

There are a lot of things I want to say in response…

FANFIC: House of Light – This Is A Recording

“I’m sorry but the number you are trying to reach has been disconnected. This is a recording.”

– Automated Answering Service

House of Light

1. Prologue
2. Morning Madness
3. Give Me Something (To Hold Onto)
4. Hunches in Bunches
5. [ Ocean Waves ]
6. This Is A Recording

The first time Bug kissed her, the two of them were at the park in the late afternoon. It was hot that day, a rarity in Portland; she remembered the sunlight burning on her face like a heated blanket, before it suddenly lifted away from her, disappearing as he leaned in and stepped between them.  The next thing she knew, his lips were on hers.  At first she’d been afraid she wouldn’t want it the way she knew she was supposed to.  She’d been afraid that the moment she felt Bug’s hands on her she would only be able to feel him, taste him—the vise-like grip, the smoky breath, the stubble scratching against her cheek—all these things she had come to know all too well in the dark corners of night.

But no, it wasn’t like that at all.

FANFIC: House of Light – [Ocean Waves]

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– Relaxation Collection

House of Light

1. Prologue
2. Morning Madness
3. Give Me Something (To Hold Onto)
4. Hunches in Bunches
5. [ Ocean Waves ]

When I finally tell Valerie, the conversation doesn’t exactly go the way I imagined it in my head—but any moron with a pea-size brain probably sees the disappointment coming before I do.  I don’t have an excuse for believing it might end differently.  After thirteen years in the foster care system, I should know better.

Call it what you want. Call it blind faith.

WALLPAPER: House of Light (1280×800)

I made a wallpaper to complement my Life Unexpected fanfic . Surprisingly (or perhaps not so surprisingly), this is my first LUX wallpaper.

I’m also working on a new SPN wallpaper, but to be honest it kind of looks awful right now. I think I’ll manage to finish it soon though. Oh, and I promised myself I would do some more fandoms before I did another Dan/Blair one. Frankly, it’s killing me right now, haha.

FANFIC: House of Light – Hunches in Bunches

And some Super Hunch was yelling,
“Make your mind up!  Get it done!
Only you can make your mind up!
You’re the one and only one!”
– Dr. Seuss

House of Light

1. Prologue
2. Morning Madness
3. Give Me Something (To Hold Onto)
4. Hunches in Bunches

When Lux and Tasha were younger, before either of them had ever stepped foot in Valerie’s house, they would sometimes lie awake after lights-out and play their favorite game, ‘What’s Worse?’  The rules of the game were simple.  One girl would start off by offering two hypothetical scenarios, and the other girl was required to choose which one she felt was worse—“I can’t decide” or “they’re both pretty bad” were not acceptable answers—before formulating her own question.  They would go back and forth like that, whispering to each other in the darkness, until one of them finally fell asleep or until one of the other girls in the room awoke and hissed, “If you two don’t shut up right now, I swear…”  And the two of them would only bury their faces in the pillows to muffle their laughter.

Usually the game stayed lighthearted and silly…

FANFIC: House of Light – Give Me Something

And I’ve made a million wishes now
but not a single one’s come true
Please, give me something, something to hold onto
Give me something that links me to you
– Scars on 45

House of Light

1. Prologue
2. Morning Madness
3. Give Me Something (To Hold Onto)

I spent most of my early childhood in and out of hospitals, but I’ve never been in an ambulance before.  When you’re a kid, they seem like they might be exciting until you’ve actually been in one, and then you remember where they’re taking you, where you’re going, and you remember that no one gets into an ambulance unless their world is about to change, and usually not for the better.

On the way to the emergency room, we hit bumps and dips in the road.  Each one sends a jolt throughout my body and each one feels altogether unfamiliar even though I’ve probably traveled these streets a hundred times.  It hits me that I might have to get used to this.  That whatever happened tonight is permanent and I’ll never again look out the window like any normal person and be able to see where it is I’m going or what it is I’m leaving.

Inside the ambulance, the EMT rolls up the sleeve of my nightshirt and measures my blood pressure.

FANFIC: House of Light – Morning Madness

A/N: The remainder of the story is going to take the form of a playlist or soundtrack of sorts.  The idea is that after Lux loses her vision, she finds comfort in and defines her life by what she is currently listening to, whether it be a radio show, a song, an audiobook, or something else.  Each one will serve as the foundation for its respective chapter, which will be titled to reflect that.

“It’s half past six.
And if you’re just waking up, screw you.
Ryan and I have been up since five.”

– Cate Cassidy

House of Light
1. Prologue
2. Morning Madness

“Good Morninggg, Porrtlaaannnnddd!”

That familiar radio wake-up call was what finally stirred Lux from her sleep.  For a while, she lay in bed without moving, allowing the remnants of last night’s dream to slowly melt away from her brain.  She hated unwelcome memories of the past.  They wormed their way into her dreams like nighttime intruders discovering a broken latch on a window, often bringing with them an intense visual clarity that would forever be absent from her present and future.

Reluctantly, Lux sat up and clicked off the radio, her senses adjusting to the waking world.