FANFIC: House of Light – Today Will Be Better, I Swear (Life Unexpected)
A/N: Unfortunately, this is not a new chapter. This is chapter 8, which I first posted in the summer of 2012 at ff.net, but never added to this blog. I’m sorry to say I can’t give any decisive updates regarding this story at the moment. This is my most popular fanfic of all time. I still get notifications that new readers have favorited it or subscribed to it even now, years later, so I’m sorry I don’t have better news for you right now. Please know I’m very grateful to everyone who has read it.
Old pale memories of someone you knew
Keep crawling through the back of your mind
And the closet’s been shaken with bones
Little reminders that you’re out on your own
– Stars
1. Prologue
2. Morning Madness
3. Give Me Something (To Hold Onto)
4. Hunches in Bunches
5. [ Ocean Waves ]
6. This Is A Recording
7. Speak
8. Today Will Be Better, I Swear
Lux kept the slip of paper tucked in her pocket like a good luck charm for days afterwards, only pulling it out every so often to run her fingertips along the texture of the torn edges. Paper was the opposite of ceramic, or glass: unexpected in the way that it softened at each haphazard tear, as opposed to the straight, precise edges of pre-cut sheets that would slice through your skin if you weren’t careful. Ceramic, on the other hand, became more dangerous with each sharp, jagged break.
She decided early on that she would start with the first name that Mr. Daniels had written down, the one at the top left corner. To be honest, she never allowed herself to read past that space, saving her mother’s name for later the way you might hoard the last cookie in the jar, unable to face the inevitable emptiness that followed. There were times when she wanted to throw the paper away entirely. In fact, her fingers hovered above the wastebasket more than a few times, but in the end she couldn’t go through with it.